Just kidding!

Actually, I am over here now: http://filejobean.livejournal.com

Yeah it's old school but I like it more. I'm keeping this blog up but I'll probably be moving a lot of the old posts to the new journal, and archiving all my sketches before I start deleting. So enjoy it I guess.

I am however, keeping blogspot for professional reasons. I'm starting my own little shop on SL as well as doing some renovations for the work I do irl. derpderp. Not now but in the near-ish future.

Here's the blog anyway: http://ookamibot.blogspot.com

There will be a lot of double posting. So don't worry about missing anything.

Ja ne~

The Old Hearts

In the winter’s lying hush
The death bell tolls
One by one
the ghost upon ghost
To each their own.

No time to mourn for the lost souls
The old times
Dead and buried
The fleeting memory
In the days of old.

We walk that path no more.

I come upon those buried footsteps
White in a space
Of sporadic dots
Of laughs and cries.
Ones which I shall not remember.
I promised to forget.

But I cannot walk away
From the fire
The one that calls back
To the weary heart,
In an echo of half hearted whispers.

In the forest of bare white trees
Of softly falling snow
Of quiet small things
When all is dead and sleeping
I find that path once more.

Everything is frozen in time.
Whispers hang in the trees
In crystalline formations.
Bodies swim in the cascading rivers
Of ice and broken hearts.
Only one is still beating.

I sit upon the old tales,
The good old stories
The faintly glowing heart.
I hang my head
And I sob with anguish.

The road is barren
The fog has come.

The path is forever gone.

Have some dogs!

Time to spam everyone watching my RSS feed with photos!
This Saturday I adopted a 6 month old Chow/Shepard Mix named Maggie. After a brief depression where I couldn't adopt the Husky pup of my dreams I began to visit other shelters and rescues to see if there were any dogs who charmed me and just to meet dogs in general. My first visit was to the Shelter in Memphis which was ultimately a bad idea, because it was seriously like a Doggie Concentration Camp :( There was a beautiful Shepard puppy but he acted sick. Carin and I saw a huge German Shepard in the kennels who was, to put it simply, absolutely awesome. His muzzle was half the size of my arm. We wanted to take him home and turn him into a pack dog for our amazing journey across the earth. (he was a Worg, not a dog I'm telling you!) But that place was depressing. So that weekend we went to the local shelter, not really expecting to find anyone, but they took us to the back where the outside dogs were and there in the corner was the cutest little dog (she seemed little at the time) who ran right up to the fence and leaned against it so we could pet her and scratch her, unlike the other dogs who shied away, or barked and jumped when we came by. I knew immediately she was the one I wanted to take home.


Maggie was originally adopted from the shelter by someone else. But he moved to Mexico and couldn't take her with him. So he gave her back to the shelter ;w; She's a big ball of fluff with a LOT of love to give and she's the cutest doggy ever. She follows me everywhere I go, licks me all over, runs to me when she gets into trouble, and has already claimed my bed as her own xD


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She and Ginny are already like sisters. They fought the first night Maggie was home (over toys.. and food xD) but they play all the time and now Ginny has someone who has just as much psycho energy as her.


Max is getting used to it. At first he ran around the yard the first day and chased them. Now he's kind of moping because a younger dog is around getting all the attention. He mopes and doesn't want to have anything to do with anyone.. He pretends he can take care of himself and nothing is wrong. Isn't that just like any man? xD More pictures of him next time. We have to kind of schedule potty breaks and feeding time.

We are working on crate training her (which is going rather well) and potty training which has its moments. We are trying to teach her who is top dog in the house, where she can and cannot go.. and that every stuffed animal in the house does NOT belong to her. Also.. furniture is not to be chewed on.. and shoes are not for carrying around. xD She's also scared of cars... and the leash. Still a lot to work on but she's so dedicated and so cute and playful and fun. She doesn't mind being lazy when I'm busy or following me around the house when I have to get ready for work. She loves playing with her toys on my bed and running around the yard. I can't really roughhouse with her yet because our border collie is protective but so far she loves me and I love her to death. I can't wait to train her up and get her ready for a life of adventure ♥♥

Uh

This has kind of become an 'everything' blog but I can't think so I figure I would post here and get the crazy art and writing thoughts down on paper. Or... would that be blog? I'm also ignoring my hunger because I need to eat better and not so much and if I wait until 12 I will be able to form a nice schedule routine for myself. Then I can go back to writing.

I've been tossing Half Blood in every which direction lately. I was almost 100% on turning it into a webcomic until I read through the chapters. I ask myself a lot "why am I doing this?" and I don't have an answer. Am I turning it into a webcomic because I am too worried about what people will think? Am I just doing it for attention? Am I afraid of rejection? But then if I write it, am I writing it because I'm too lazy to draw it? Am I writing it because I don't have time? My head is full of wondering over what other people might think and I feel bad for sending 2398 e-mails to my reader group telling them plans are changing.. OH WAIT no they aren't.. oh wait yes they are. I write when I have time, I've been so busy with everything else that I forget, and then I worry. I know what I want out of it.

I just want to tell a story. The art part of it is just the extra frills on the hem of the dress. More than anything I just want to bring the project to life and do it with the passion I have for it, and to let everything else I may add to it breathe life into it in different ways. Of course tomorrow I may feel differently but I know I have to make up my mind somewhere... and stop feeling sorry for myself.

Plus I really hate the title.

I think maybe I am just destined to be a writer, even though technical skills are something that need to be touched up. I may look into taking some courses at the University of Pheonix in Arizona for creative writing, although I'd like to go for an English degree SOMEwhere. But those schools are usually hard to get into, because you need to get high scores in High School, you have to take all of the basic education classes which I would ultimately fail no question and I wouldn't even get to advance because I'd be spending more time on my english homework than trig or biochemistry. *gag* Plus I know I would go absolutely insane if i didn't have a drawing class or some kind of art elective but it would all be the stuff I hated in MCAD like photography and painting and stuff like that. No comics or illustration. Considered going back to MCAD for a Masters but I don't know how I could learn anything else about drawing comics but if its all independent study then I could get through it somehow. I NEED SOME KIND OF EDUCATIONAL STRUCTURE!

But one thing I would really like to do in life is write comics or write for games, since I am more of a creator and director in terms of ideas and things. I enjoy writing a chapter and listening to the reader tell me how much they like a character or how something made them mad or upset and though it may sound morbid its exciting because I did all of that with words and ideas and not pictures. It's rewarding.

So I don't know. I may say screw webcomic I'm writing it and drawing stuff for it and if I do a few comics I do. I may turn around in 2 days and say a webcomic would be awesome. But then I know I'll end up, a week or two later, saying "why did I ever decide to do that?"

But I'm mostly so busy lately that I rarely have time to think about it anyway. Oh well.

Moses Supposes

Two posts in one day! I win!

Watching this movie right now. Fucking love Gene Kelly

this will be one of many :D

pfff i edited. Gene Kelly xD I always get his first name wrong.

Dragonball Evolution!

I went to see Dragonball Evolution tonight. It was hokey, with bad graphics, kind of cheesy and wasn't anything like the original Dragonball.

But omfg I want to see it like 6 more times! xD

Okay firstly... know that I am a nerd. That even though a critic lives in me I liked the Tank Girl movie even if it wasn't anything like the comic xD And is probably one of my favorite movies. Also, I haven't seen ALL of Dragonball and I haven't read much of the manga. So if something is off, feel free to throw anything at me and discuss. Okay let the nerdism begin!!

Dragonball Evolution was like a mix between the original Dragonball, an episode of Buffy the Vampire Slayer, and Shaolin Soccer. (I think the guy who directed it worked on this movie. amirite? wrong? can't remember). It looked kind of like it should have been a tv movie or a sci-fi special but hey I will commend them on a few things: the cities, the technology, the cast... I was honestly very surprised xD

When they said it was going to be like a high school drama, I groaned. But actually, it was quite cool! Grandpa Gohan kicked serious ass! and it takes place in the Dragonball world, not New York or Japan, no way! It had that Dragonball charm with the cities full of high tech stuff and bright lights and then on the side little bumpkin asian villages! xD Bulma had a kickass bike and Yamcha's geep? Yes plz!

There was some stuff missing, like Krillin, Chaozu, Tien, Puar, Oolong, the Kame Turtle, Kami, Yajirobi, and Ox King! And the high school drama part was actually quite surprising. It wasn't that Goku was a wimp or anything. He just was taught not to "fight boys" as Gohan put it. xD I thought Justin Chatwin looked like a Hobbit (and he is quite shrimpy) but he had the Goku charm! Silly, dorky, a bit of an airhead, just a powerful guy who wanted to defend the earth and his friends while wanting to be a normal guy. He showed up the bullies by letting them make fools of themselves and not lifitng his fists to fight xD And hey, his voice even sounded Goku-ish! I tried not to pay attention to the badly parted hair though. I think it was icky in some parts but oh well... it wouldn't be Goku if it was flat and hippy like. *nitpicky*

Emmy Rossum as Bulma? I LOVE HER. She immediately struck me as Bulma. Bitchy, critical of everyone, with a gun and cleavage and the ability to kick anyone's ass. Also a genius with a hot ride. And I don't just mean Yamcha (he was kind of scary looking in this movie actually). Capsule Corp!! She was probably my favorite part of the movie.

Chow Yun Fat as Roshi was actually quite good. He had a bikini magazine and a girl on his shirt and was fun loving and dopey, always dressed in Hawaiin shirts. So, kind of like the real Roshi except without the turtle shell on his back... and without the many nosebleeds. But he did grab Bulma's ass at one point. WIN.

Yamcha was freaked out by EVERYTHING as natural Yamcha should have been but.. DUDE. He didn't even do his wolf fang fist thing! He didn't do ANY martial arts!! But he was a total asshole which was awesome xD And he eventually got the girl. Even if his hair was bad xD

Chi chi... at first I hated her. She was just some hot chick who liked martial arts and seduced the main guy. But she ended up being kind of charming and a total bitch towards the end like the real Chi Chi 8D; She was also rich kind of like in the original but no Ox King :[ My only beef with it? GOKU WOULD HAVE CHOSEN FOOD OVER CHI CHI ANY DAY! Goku, do you want a feast or do you want to make out with Chi Chi? Food would have won, sorry lol. He didn't pig out that much, maybe once or twice, and he didn't once complain that he couldn't fight cause he was hungry! The only reason he agrees to marry Chi Chi as a kid is cause he thought marriage was FOOD! @w@;;

Piccolo... oh gawd Piccolo. Hot actor... interesting design... very... Von Doom xD Black cloak and green crazy alien. No antannae. And he didn't throw up a good Piccolo at all (isn't that how the good Piccolo was born? he threw up an egg or something??). I hated his airship though. WTF Piccolo xD I would have forgiven you if you had somehow joined forces with the Red Ribbon Army.

Mai... sexy and kicked ass. Not like the original Mai. But cool enough. She passes for now.

The Oozaru... me and Carin laughed for hours.

ANYWAY! Overall, it was very true to the spirit of Dragonball and the characters were very true to the originals. They didn't change the names for the sake of Americanization and even called Roshi "Muten Roshi" and used the Kamehameha! The movie was kind of like a parody of the actual series, like a well written fanfic, and if you're a big fan you were able to notice a lot of the references to the original like Muten Roshi's island, Capsule Corporation, Bulma's last name, the Turtle shell training, Gohan's Pole, the slight reference to the Kaioken, the Dragonballs, the Dragon Temple, the tournament (which should have been longer... seriously that's like.. a big part of the whole series is those tournaments!), and Goku's ability to chow down on ginormous chicken legs and eat bizarre food (that he gave up... for Chi Chi..) and his developing super strength. Although I laughed through most of it, I did come out of that movie with a new love for the series, and it made me want to watch the whole thing over again and buy all the manga. I even took my artbook along.

OH and fight scenes were pretty awesome too... the ki and the power fighting were kind of hokey (Piccolo fly/floating looool) but it was still pretty awesome all around. I WANT A SPIRIT BOMB NEXT TIME GOKU.

So if you're in the mood for some nostalgia and comparing notes, go see it! I say go see it anyway because I LOVE Dragonball with all my heart and I think even though the movie was kind of cheesy and... different... it was truly unique! It was also very short. So you won't have to suffer long xD

I will leave with this though... did Goku HAVE to have floaty pants?? Why not the Gi pants??? WHY. Piccolo got them, didn't he?? WHY floaty pants?! Justin Chatwin is already scrawny and miniscule. WHY make him look smaller and dorky with those floaty pants?! GI PANTS ARE THE WAY BABY. FOR CRIPES SAKE! and... NO KRILLIN! I WILL NEVER FORGIVE YOU!! AUGH! He was kind of replaced by Chi Chi in importance I think he would have given the movie so much more with their friendship and companionship (no yaoi jokes plz lol) but nooo goku was just tryin to get the girl. AUUGH. KIRLLINNN *cry*AND! Where is my rendition/remix of Cha la head Cha la?! Speed Racer got his theme song!! Maybe Cha la was just for DBZ I don't know but COME ON!

As for the next movie (which there will obviously be) please please PLEASE do not let Little Son Gohan be some dorky child star. For the love of god and all that is holy. As much as I love him, thank God Haley Joel Osment is all grown up.

ffft UNTIL NEXT TIME! Go see it! Go show your love and support for Dragonball even if you hate this movie. I'm going to buy it when it comes out. Because I adore you Akira Toryama Senseeeeiiii *foams at mouth and slides down the glass clawing towards the sky*

Someday I hope to be as great as him ;w; The movie didn't damage my perception of him at all xD It just made me love Dragonball even more xDDD


Example of me and Carin in the theater watching: http://vanheist.deviantart.com/art/shut-me-up-117729541 cept we were the only two in the front with two people in the back. i was afraid they were going to leave because of us xDD

Some buildings!

for a project I am working on. :) I'll let it be a surprise...

argh so many windows.